I want to preface this by stating that I do NOT support AI in any generative form and that any thing that may come off as positive towards it is me talking on feelings I had in the moment.
I've always had a fascination with AI ever since I can remember. I will be fully transparent about that (It still fascinates me on some level). I remember when generative AI as we know it began developing....gosh those hellscape demon creations that people would make on sites like Craiyon felt..otherworldly. Early Suno always made me and my friends laugh with the bullshit it would generate, I even came up with stupid little OCs because of us messing with this shit.
It got almost uncomfortably better. As it got better it almost felt...worse. Now, at first I remained ignorant...My friends started voicing concerns and i didn't really see the issues...or i didn't care. They would still want to see what next thing I was "making"...but over time I noticed their interest disappearing. I began to wonder if people weren't over reacting so I looked into it more...and suddenly as i began to educate myself I noticed the issues more.
I used AI to help me learn to code...which depending on your view on the subject, Isn't the worst use of AI, especially compared to my previous use of it. Yet, I still felt this..feeling in my pit.
Yes, AI did help me but...well AI is often wrong and I developed bad habits because of it. Not just that, but when building my website I would get frustrated when I couldn't understand something so I would have the AI do it for me which really isn't helping me learn. Yet again I got that sour feeling in my pit. I didn't feel fullfilled and my website had no soul.
I found a layout generator as a base to get started and I've been learning through trial and error...it makes me want to tear my hair out...but at the same time I feel fullfilled. I realize that I could have figured this out without AI. I know what you're thinking "No shit Nyx.." I know. I'm getting better. I feel embarassed it took me so long to really understand.
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With Sora shutting down, a TON of ChatGPT users cancelling their subsciptions, and RAM prices going down, It seems like we are healing...slowly.
I'll probably always look back on Neco-arc AI covers and Goku fighting Hank hill videos but...I'll be so fucking happy when all this shit is gone for good. I think that me and my friends will always look back on our stupid suno songs fondly because of it bringing us together but I wouldn't touch it again with a 10000ft pole and I know they share the same sentiment. most of these memes and shit can be made by HUMANS anyway.
In a world of instant gratification I implore you to learn that feeling of slow burn success. the feeling of knowing you made something even if it's absolute dogshit.
When I "made" my first version of my website it felt empty...I was looking at the fancy shiny toy but...that was it, my words were in it but my soul was void. In building this new website...even with code being taken from other people...it actually feels real. I feel connected.